Lesson(s) in humility (and patience)

By Liz on November 22, 2019

So.

I was back to work in late October and able to submit an invoice on November 1.

But, some glitches.

AND … here we are the week before Thanksgiving and I am skint! No cash for turkey :) !!! A large receivable …

Thanks to my local bank, who I have banked with here in Montana for 25 years … a small bridge loan with the Jeeper (17 year old Jeep … good grief!) as collateral, I will have turkey money on Monday.

And, I have news that the glitches re my invoice might be resolved as well … pending key persons being NOT on “vacation” pre-TDay.

Still … it looks to be that all will be resolved by early December latest.

Good grief.

I have had embarrassing and somewhat humbling/humiliating conversations with my creditors. Thankfully, 44 years of good behavior has paid off and to a “man” (bank, etc.) they have all said: “oh, a one off, we trust you”.

Still … RATS! Mostly, I am mad at myself. At the start of the hiatus, I believed in the 30 days and continued on my normal path. Many things I could have/should have done differently.

Water under the bridge.

I cannot change the past.

What I CAN do is learn from it … hopefully!!

And never fear … my pantry is full of food for me, for Emmett and Auggie. No one is going without.

But, I do know and maybe now better understand, what many, many people … without the resources I have … might be experiencing. It gives me a new perspective on food insecurity, housing insecurity … INSECURITY in general. It is not a comfortable place to be.

So.

Maybe I needed to learn a lesson in insecurity that I did not think I needed to learn.

Perspective changed.

I hope some lesson(s) learned.

This Thanksgiving will have meaning unlike any Thanksgivings in my past.