Auggie: sad news
On Monday afternoon, Auggie was hit and killed near the road.
A neighbor witnessed the driver of a large pickup swerve to intentionally hit Auggie.
She went immediately to see if she could help Auggie, but he was dead. She called another neighbor, who called me and they all waited for me and were with me as I recovered Auggie’s body.
All wanted to camp on the road and wait to “catch” the person. I was certainly ready to do murder, but another part of me knew that I did not want to act as bad as the person who killed Auggie.
Everyone stayed with me for a bit. I had wrapped Auggie in his blanket. There was little visible trauma, which I am grateful for.
I am also grateful that the incident was witnessed and I was called immediately so that I did not go through the looking and finding on my own.
I called my vet, who is only 15 minutes away and they handle transport to a crematory and return of the cremains. As they all know and love Auggie, this gave them a chance to say goodbye. They cried with me when I dropped him off.
When I got home, I let Emmett sniff my hands and the Jeep and a towel that had held Auggie. He looked up at me … I think he knew … He has not seemed down or anything other than his normal loving self … happy to go for walks and play. He has looked on top of the chairs where Auggie would often nap. He typically stays close to me and that has not changed.
So.
I have been up and down the anger spectrum and written murderous, hateful notes and scenes in my head. I think I am past that, recognizing it as a waste of time both for me and my well-being and with the knowledge that a person who would do such a thing has issues that a confrontation would not touch.
At the current moment, as I write this, I am grateful that Auggie did not lie near the road for very long. If the person drove by even fairly soon after, there would be no satisfaction in seeing anything. I think that is the best thing for me and for Auggie’s dignity in death and also for Emmett who I am sure picks up my emotional states.
I did report the incident to the Sherriff’s office Animal Control, so a description of the vehicle is logged.
Now, Emmett and I move forward. We are doing a bit of extra walking and playing, primarily because it helps me when I get feeling bad or disoriented/distracted. I’m working as that concentration is helpful as well as there is a work commitment … and the mortgage, etc. :)
I spend some time looking at photos to help me get to the “remembering Joy”.
Auggie was a special cat: affectionate, playful, beautiful, companionable and I miss him so very much.
***a note about comments. I closed them for this post. It is for me. At this moment, I cannot … I just cannot … I needed to write this post for me but I need to be still in my own space with Emmett for a bit.