April thoughts
Well.
This was an interesting month, and I am not able to share details as most are not my story to tell … I was an observer, a supporter, a bit of a problem solver and an administrative assistant!
My work schedule suffered, but thankfully there were no project deadlines, and I am once again so very grateful for the people I work with … their kindness, thoughtfulness and prayerful support of me and the circumstances as well as the freedom for me to work with flexibility.
My dear pets: Emmett and Oscar. They have been affected but are still my rocks of love and constancy. Still, I am not happy that they obviously felt my anxiety. Thankfully, we all got outside in the fresh air to walk and to play … yes, even Oscar. I do want him to be a mostly inside cat and he is very MUCH a “close to home” cat, but he is enjoying being out with Emmett and me. And we are enjoying him outside with us.
Right now, Oscar is sticking close to the house … exploring the woodpile and some of the woods very near to the house. That is unlike Auggie and my other tuxedo cat Gus who both were active hunters and explored further. I have high hopes that Oscar will be satisfied with close to the house … there is great hunting without going far afield! And when Emmett and I play fetch, Oscar joins in the game. Big fun for all of us.
I have lots of balls in the air at the moment. The motorhome is for sale, the Jeep is for sale … thinking about the house as well … I spent time with a realtor, who is a former neighbor. It was great to connect with her and hear her thoughts.
Ultimately, as in previous times of great uncertainty, have put all out in “the Universe” … tried to think about what I really want and also letting go of all to see what unfolds.
Things happen! Not always what we expect or want but often in a way that is just right. At least, that has been my experience.
The last several weeks, I have run the emotional gamut and finally landed at “I have very little control and ultimately must live my own life every day”.
So, I end April and prepare for May with a light heart open to whatever unfolds.
